Monday, October 26, 2009

Getting Personal.....


I have a really tough time with my self worth and self esteem as a mother and woman of God. I always feel like Im not doing good enough, that my children and husband deserve more, that I could be serving more, etc. So, today as an "experiment" Im writing in my journal all of the these I do today. All the little things, and how I felt when I did them. Im going to try and make myself see that I do more than nothing. I have been praying hard that Heavenly Father will help me to see myself as He sees me. I have alot of challenges, sick child, disabled child, onery child, plus health issues of my own, and financial issues. But I have sooo many blessings, to many to even list. I know that Im not the perfect mom, nor is there even a such thing, but I am hoping today to be able to look back and say ' I did ok today and thats great!'. I actually recommend this to any mom. I may post my list here, not sure yet. If anyone else feels like it let me know, we can share together. I am going to say a specific prayer for all the momma's out there who just dont feel good enough. We have the most important job in this entire world. We have to work hard, but I think we also have to give ourselves a break too. We arent perfect. But we can try our best. So, today, I write down the little things. Maybe those little things will add up one day. Maybe I will look at my children and grandchildren and say, wow, that was SO worth it and I did a good job!!!!! ;) my love and prayers to all the momma's today!

3 comments:

Miranda said...

I hear you loud and clear. I have the exact same feelings. FWIW, I think you're a great mom.:o)

Colin's Mom said...

Thanks for visiting my blog and for your kind words! As you know, as bloggers we need all the positive and encouraging feedback we can get to keep us going. So I appreciate you taking the time to tell me.

And in response to your post, I don't have self-esteem issues so much but I suffer from guilt. I'm a working mother and wish I could spend more time with my little guy. I feel like the days just fly by and I'm missing out on so much. I guess we all have our issues to work on and all we can do is acknowledge it and try to change or live with it.

Kellie said...

I know exactly what you mean, and I've written those kinds of lists before. It always makes me feel better to see all the things I get done, rather than a To Do list where it seems all I see are the things I didn't get to. It also helps when things I accomplish are things that I don't do often, like yard work.