Today is my 29th birthday. I have alot of good goals and hopes for this last year in my 20's. Hard to believe!
When I started this blog, I tried to record the fun things we were doing as a family, what my kids did in school, etc. But I realized that this blog has become a record of my family and one day I hope to print it out and put it in my families scrapbooks etc, so that they have this record of our family.
Because of that, I feel the need to put in here what this past week has been like. It isnt pleasant, but it is life, and it should be recorded.
About two weeks ago I found out I was pregnant. I was thrilled as my body started to change in the small ways that happen when you first become pregnant. On sunday April25th, I miscarried. For some reason, miscarriages tend to be a bit taboo, people dont talk about them much, but for me, it is a part of my families history. Its been a rough week, my body was to low on iron and i was sad, but this is part of my history.
To top that off, it was the birthday of my nephew Moses just a couple of days later, I miss him so much. He is a perfect angel now.
We found out yesterday that we are very lucky to have our Marlee girl, her pulse/ox test came back, we had hoped her surgery had worked, but it didnt. Her average o2 level was 88 and it dropped below 50 % at times. She was started on oxygen last night. She now has the big o2 concentrator and all the goodies that go along with it. She had a rough night but it should get easier. She goes in for a sleep study at st louis on may13th, so we can find out why this is happening to her.
It seems as though alot of sadness has happened but I feel so blessed. I have a family that loves me, my daughter is safe because of modern medicine, my birthday is good because I set goals for the next year of my life and I like that.
I have friends and family and I love them more than words can say. This is my history, my record for today, april 29th 2010